I don’t have a schedule for this, what I think of TBD – you, my family behind a screen. I come here when I remember, when I have something to say, or when it’s been long enough that I start to miss you. I miss the clarity that comes from putting my thoughts into words.
It’s been a while. I’m sorry. I’ve been being gentle, and right now, that looks a lot like not crying at work and dealing with life one
piece of gum stuck in the carpet lunch break crying in my car disaster area I call a room thing at a time. I’ve been spinning – I have a lovely little drop spindle and some merino roving I’ve been experimenting with, and I love the calm that spinning creates.
I have a full-time job now. I work from 9-5, M-F – a typical desk job, but one that will hopefully catapult me into my dreams. I enjoy the work that I do, but there isn’t a lot of knitting time. I have knitting at my desk always, but little to nothing gets done over the course of an 8-hour day. I still have a class with it’s associated homework, I still have housework that’s
spiralling out of control in the same state as my emotions a little below what a homeless person anyone would consider “clean”. I haven’t been knitting as much as I would like to, but I have a big project on the needles and several smaller ones as well. I plan on a knitting roundup post in the very near future. (I know, I know, I’ve said it before. I’ll get on that.) (Remind me.)
I guess I’m a little scrambled right now, being alone and tired and unused to the way that my life works now. But I’m getting better at remembering to eat. I don’t cry myself to sleep anymore. I’m getting better at pokemon. (did I tell you i love pokemon with an unholy passion) I’m figuring out who I am without Him and what to do with what spare time I have.
I’ll see you soon. What I’ll do until then is still TBD. <3