Since I moved, my schedule has been very different. I pretty much do whatever I want, whenever I want. I have a car (nellie), I have lots of yarn, I have a lot of free time, and I do whatever I want with all of the above.
The strange thing about all this is how much I thought I would enjoy it vs how much I actually enjoy it. I thought having no responsibilities, nobody to report to, nobody to tell me what to do or where to go or how to live my life would be awesome and amazing. In reality, the longer I go living in this type of limbo, the more I cling to what little structure I have. The little things I do have become all-important.
What started as a little Idea – having dinner at 5:00pm, has grown into one of the defining moments of my day – Every day, no matter where I am or what I am doing, when 4:00 rolls around, I need to be at home, in the kitchen, preparing dinner so that I can be sitting down and tucking in when the clock strikes 5.
I force myself to stick to a sleep schedule, even though there’s no reason I can’t stay up for a day then sleep for 14 hours, or trade 6-hour shifts of waking and sleeping, waking and sleeping. I limit the time I spend on the internet – I play less minecraft now than I did before I moved! I don’t have Netflix or Hulu, I don’t have a TV or wireless internet. I spend lots of time knitting, I listen to lots of music, I spend lots of time thinking and reading, and I spend lots of time with other people or out of my house.
I don’t hate the way that I live now, but the longer I live this way, the more I dislike it. I have a class that meets twice a week, and I have biweekly homework assignments and weekly projects that I have to do. I do laundry on Mondays, I shop on Tuesdays, I make dinner every night at 4pm and eat at 5, but the lack of something to do keeps me counting down the days until Fall semester starts.
In other words, today I got an email saying I got the job I was applying for. Not to overshare, but it pays well and has excellent benefits. I’m so excited, there are no words, but I’m utterly crushed at the prospect of waiting a month to start. What will I do!? I guess that, too, will have to remain TBD.